Monday, June 20, 2011
My Heart kinda hurts this afternoon. I got great news from the docs this morning, but still my heart hurts. Spending all your days and nights in the hospital can make you very restless. I hate having to subject Alexandra to all these tests. But I have to. I have to get her to where she is relatively healthy. She wont eat, so shes getting a g tube. I miss my home. I miss my bed. I miss my Aria. I miss my Husband. I miss everything. These lonely afternoon hours spent in the hospital can be brutal. Alexandra is just miserable. Shes getting happier each day but she hates it here. Because she cant be free. So Im going to sit here while she sleeps and just hurt a little. This is so not easy. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am so humbled by this world.