A Letter to My Future Self
First of all, it’s going to be okay. You’re not as stupid as you look and your actually smarter than the average bear, so it’s going to be okay. The children will love you. They will think every word that falls from your lips is law and will use that knowledge to create a better world for all. But just in case it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to, here’s some advice…….
Chillax. Children learn at different speeds. Not every child is going to jump up and solve a complex math word problem involving probability with no issue. Some of them are going to have to think really hard, and others are going to not want to think at all. It’s your job to bring them together, and I know you can bring them together.
Appreciate their differences. Appreciate and be fascinated by the different ways they think. They won’t all think like you do. Listen to them. Figure out what they are saying. Psychoanalyze them if you have to, but figure it out. They will remember you as that teacher who ‘listened’.
If some kid comes up with a mathematical explanation you don’t get, don’t sweat it. Make them explain it to you. Figure out how it works. The differences in our capacity for thinking is what makes us humans. It’s what makes the world go round. I know you appreciate the varying ideas of this world, this is just another one of those.
Thankfully, since you’re going to do elementary education with a STEM endorsement, you will still have tons of math thrown in your face, so I don’t worry about your continued ability to critically think when it comes to mathematics. Compute on sista. You got this.
You have no fear of teaching math. This I am proud of you for. Challenge yourself. It’s what makes you who you are. Pushing boundaries is what gets you going. Push the kids’ boundaries. Blow their minds. Create future innovators. Create doctors, create engineers. Create the person who can save your daughter’s life. I think God knew what He was doing when he gave you Alexandra and you always wanted to be a teacher. You are special. The children you will teach will be special. You will show them their individuality and how they can embrace it. You will help them learn to collaborate and create a better world. It’s what you were made for.
Mostly, I want you to remember I believe in you. I know you have a lot on your plate and sometimes you just wanna crawl in a hole. But you have got this sista. You have an amazing level of tenacity and down-right hard headed, no bullshit, let’s do this-ness. So do it. Be you. Do you.
Go forward and don’t look back. The future is bright. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. It’s the journey that matters, not the destination. Enjoy the ride, help others to learn to enjoy the ride.
And above all – LOVE. Love wholeheartedly. Regardless of the outcome. Live fully. I know you’ve got it in you.
I BELIEVE IN YOU.
Your annoying inner voice that you sometimes love but pisses you off